A New Morning

Good morning, God, and thank you for a new day in our lives.  I really do appreciate the time that you've given me, and the things that surround me that I can cherish and enjoy.  Today may be a bit rainy, which will be good for the plants and flowers and trees; it will also keep me indoors for the most part--I love curling up on the couch on a rainy day.

I'm just five days from filling up a U-Haul with all our stuff in storage and moving it over to our new home.  We won't follow the stuff for several weeks, but it will be nice to get it over there and not have to deal with it later.  We're both hoping that this is our last move for a while, as neither of us ever had planned to do this much moving at all.

It really is perplexing to think of how things have gone over the last five years.  When I started teaching high school instead of college, I thought that it would be a simple change.  But after less than two years at my first school, I got laid off, along with twelve others.  Why?  Because we had advanced degrees, and we were more expensive than newer teachers would have been.  So they fired us to get cheaper teachers.  Pretty simple.  Unfortunately, we had just bought a house in town, as we had planned to spend a lot of time there.  So we lost the house to foreclosure and had to move into our RV.  It wasn't a pleasant time for us, but we dealt with it.

Unfortunately, the only job I found (five months later) was four hours away from home, so we ended up having to pay two rents, and saw each other only on weekends.  It wasn't a pleasant time, even though I did enjoy the students at the new school, which was on the Navajo reservation.

Unfortunately, there was virtually no opportunity for my wife to work on the reservation, so we decided to move somewhere where we might have been able to find more opportunity.  That worked out for me, but not for her.

But you know all this, God.  So why am I telling it to you?  I guess to help to clarify, to help to understand how we've come to the point at which our RV is about to be repossessed and we feel the need to move again to try to find more opportunity.  We've trusted you completely during every step of the last five years, and things have simply gone very poorly.  Which of course brings up the question, was our trust misplaced?  That's something that I have to come to terms with.